Jumat, 28 Agustus 2009

Menunggu..dan menunggu...

menunggu..kata yang selalu kita dengar..dan kegiatan yang selalu kita lakukan..

kalo ambil positifnya..menunggu adalah jalan untuk melatih kesabaran kita..membuat kita semakin kuat..dan mengajarkan kita agar tidak lagi menjadi egois..

susah ya ninggalin ego..andai saja manusia tidak memiliki ego..pasti yang diinginkan marx dan kaum hippies akan terwuujud...

seandainya tidak ada ego..kita sudah berada di surga sekarang..

menunggu dan menanti..pelajaran untuk membunuh ego kita..hanya jika kita mau sabar dan ikhlas atas semua keadaan yang terjadi di sekeliling kita..

andaikan tidak ada ego..Indonesia tidak akan menjadi seperti ini..
tidak akan ada bom, tidak akan ada angka kemiskinan yang melonkaj..todak akan ada milyarder baru tiap harinya..tidak akan ada korupsi, kejahatan, kesedihan...

tp harus diakuin juga kalo ga ada ego kita ga akan mungkin merasakan kepuasan, kebahagiaan, senang...

sesuatu yang sulit untuk dijalankan pasti memiliki maksud besar dibaliknya...

sabar dalam menunggu..menunggu sesuatu yang tidak pasti..menunggu dan berharap..

susah memang..keep on ur hope when things are falling apart..

tapi disinilah ego kita diuji..kesabaran kita..dan kedewasaan kita..

tidak ada yang kebetulan dalam hidup kita..semua sudah ada dalam rencana-Nya..

ketika kita menunggu..itulah saaat kita diuji..sampai kita sabar sehingga kita dikasih nilai dan hadiah oleh Nya..

being a human that less selfish..and more patient...

Are You Addicted??

Are You Addicted?

I just watch another Oprah show..this time is about drug addiction with the testimonial of Tatum O'neil. For a glince, I wont be recognizing my self in her. I was never become a drug addict, I even never see what's the form of a drug. But then, I realized, there is some important point that I can see in her that I have also. It's call addiction.

I think many of us that has an addiction in their life in many form. Addiction is not only for drugs. Addiction to alcohol, addiction to smoke, addiction to sex, addiction to food, addiction to movie, addiction to food, addiction to internet, addiction to facebook, addiction to your ex lover, addiction to your significant other..many kinds of addiction.

What is addiction anyway? Well, I don't look this word in a dictionary. In my opinion addiction is when you feel that u can't let something away from you. U think that it is your live, that if u lose it u will feel like nothing. Addiction is something that u know is not use, that is no advantage in it, that sometimes you know it's a stupid thing. But yet, you just feel that u cant let it go, or release it from your life time. And it took the most of your time. And if u are in a circumstance not able to do it, you will find a way, you will try your very best to find a way, even when you have to sacrifice your life.

I fell that also. Being addicted to something that I know is very stupid and unreasonable. Being addicted to something that makes me do stupid things, crazy things, and make my self like a moron and a jerk in one time.

The problem of being addiction is that ourself. We say that we want to be free, but we do nothing to get it. Every time I look my self up in a mirror, I always see the stupid, moron, sad girl that I never ever saw before. Everyone say that I should let go of my addiction. But I cant. Or I wouldn't? Maybe it's more because of I wouldn't. I keep say that I wish I can, but I never say I wish I would. The problem is in you. If only you would let a half of you go and throw it to waste, you can be such a more useful man for the universe.

Being an addiction is not good. It only feels good for a while, but the rest is suffer. We keep blaming God on what happened to us, or maybe we put that blame to demon as well. But actually it's not their fault. God give us an option, devil only tempt us. It's our right to choose, and for me...i choose the wrong option.

Now God say something else to me. I give u another opportunity to choose, let the addiction go or keep being a stupid moron girl. I really wish I can choose the first option. But now I'm still learning to say I would like to choose the first option. I hope you do too..

have a good day everyone..don't wait till it's to late to let your addiction go....

F****n' Love!!

Cinta..sesuatu yang absurd.
Siapa si cinta?
Apa itu cinta?
Cinta tak harus memiliki
cinta itu buta
cinta itu tidak mengenal fisik
cinta itu tidak mengenal materi.*yaiyalah..namanya juga buta
trus cinta tu apa dong?
Zat kimiakah? Hantukah? Orangkah?
Orang bisa hidup karena cinta
orang juga bisa menderita karena cinta
jadi cinta tu baik atau jahat?
Kenapa manusia harus memiliki perasaan yang namanya cinta?
Cinta sama Tuhan
cinta sama pasangan
cinta sama orang tua
cinta sama negara
cinta..cinta..cinta
tai kucinglah sama cinta
gimana kalo gw bilang cinta tu bau! Cinta tu menjijikkan! Cinta tu menyebalkan!!!!
anak SD aja skrg udah bisa bilang cinta..next what? Anak TK? Anak Playgroup???
banyak lagu yang ngomongin cinta..banyak film yang ngomongin cinta..tp tetep ga bisa dijelaskan dengan logika apa itu cinta
cinta kadang bisa lebih kejam dari Lucifer.
Cinta kadang bisa lebih kejam dari hewan terbuas manapun
tapi bisa lebih manis dari gula
dan lebih candu dari nikotin
tapi satu hal yang gw tau..Tuhan memakai cinta untuk membuat kita lebih dewasa, lebih kuat dan lebih bijaksana dari sebelumnya..
cinta tu alat..cinta tu oknum..cinta tu........u fill it for me......