Are You Addicted??

Are You Addicted?

I just watch another Oprah show..this time is about drug addiction with the testimonial of Tatum O'neil. For a glince, I wont be recognizing my self in her. I was never become a drug addict, I even never see what's the form of a drug. But then, I realized, there is some important point that I can see in her that I have also. It's call addiction.

I think many of us that has an addiction in their life in many form. Addiction is not only for drugs. Addiction to alcohol, addiction to smoke, addiction to sex, addiction to food, addiction to movie, addiction to food, addiction to internet, addiction to facebook, addiction to your ex lover, addiction to your significant other..many kinds of addiction.

What is addiction anyway? Well, I don't look this word in a dictionary. In my opinion addiction is when you feel that u can't let something away from you. U think that it is your live, that if u lose it u will feel like nothing. Addiction is something that u know is not use, that is no advantage in it, that sometimes you know it's a stupid thing. But yet, you just feel that u cant let it go, or release it from your life time. And it took the most of your time. And if u are in a circumstance not able to do it, you will find a way, you will try your very best to find a way, even when you have to sacrifice your life.

I fell that also. Being addicted to something that I know is very stupid and unreasonable. Being addicted to something that makes me do stupid things, crazy things, and make my self like a moron and a jerk in one time.

The problem of being addiction is that ourself. We say that we want to be free, but we do nothing to get it. Every time I look my self up in a mirror, I always see the stupid, moron, sad girl that I never ever saw before. Everyone say that I should let go of my addiction. But I cant. Or I wouldn't? Maybe it's more because of I wouldn't. I keep say that I wish I can, but I never say I wish I would. The problem is in you. If only you would let a half of you go and throw it to waste, you can be such a more useful man for the universe.

Being an addiction is not good. It only feels good for a while, but the rest is suffer. We keep blaming God on what happened to us, or maybe we put that blame to demon as well. But actually it's not their fault. God give us an option, devil only tempt us. It's our right to choose, and for me...i choose the wrong option.

Now God say something else to me. I give u another opportunity to choose, let the addiction go or keep being a stupid moron girl. I really wish I can choose the first option. But now I'm still learning to say I would like to choose the first option. I hope you do too..

have a good day everyone..don't wait till it's to late to let your addiction go....